Why 2016 Wasn't the Worst Year Ever

I am well aware of the fact that a myriad of people both on the internet and in real life love to purport the fact that 2016 was a fucking awful year and they can't wait for 2017, etc etc. I would hesitantly conclude that yes, 2016 was hard. Personally, it was bar none the hardest year of my life. There is no question about that. Even looking back now my eyes are wet with tears because the pain is so fresh and new and real. 

However, with that pain has come the biggest learning curve I could have never anticipated. When I look back onto a year ago today, I am absolutely baffled at the person I was and the person I have become. They are completely different people. In reflecting on how excruciating that transition was for me I am also reluctant to call it a "bad" year or a "bad" time. 

I think that the way people think these days is changing. The way we are supposed to think and feel is plastered onto every surface of the media and purported by news outlets and celebrities. There is a way people want us to think and I personally believe that the larger rhetoric out there is one of fear and anxiety which subsequently has resulted in the label of 2016 being awful, catastrophic, and an emblem of fear. 

I refuse to allow my own energy to coincide with that of anxiety and fear. I refuse to take the experiences I personally have had this year and look at them as negative or devastating. I believe that there are two sides to every story. So, I could look at 2016 as the hardest fucking year of my life or I could see it as the most rewarding. 

I'm choosing the latter. 

This is reflective of everything that happens in life. Bad things are going to happen in life. This is inevitable! Sometimes they're going to happen one after another after another and we will be left breathless just trying to catch ourselves up. Sometimes they will be so devastating that we are unsure how to cope or even continue living. We can't anticipate these things. From what I have learned so far, despite how painful life can be sometimes, we must always look at pain as a blessing. Pain is an opportunity for growth. 

I grew more in 2016 than I ever have before in my life. I literally transformed my entire life, top to bottom, by myself with no one else's help. I was on death's door and I picked myself up and carried myself back to health. The journey was bar none the most terrifying and excruciating thing I have ever done. It was also the biggest blessing I have ever been given. 

I am sick of being ashamed of myself or what I went through. I am sick of being quiet about life's problems. I refuse to be afraid of the state of the world and see how much it has grown instead. I will continue to life a beautiful life full of love and compassion. I promise to continue growing no matter what life throws at me. 

So 2016, thank you. Thank you for transforming me. Thank you for changing my world.