On Therapy

 

I often get wide eyed looks when I tell people I have a therapist. It’s like admitting I have a mental illness without directly saying it out loud. The funny part is, I don’t ever try to hide my past. Anyone who asks can get the full story of what I’ve been through. However, whenever I mention my therapist to someone who previously didn’t know I had one, it’s as if their entire perception of me has changed.

I have a friend who is also having a hard time mentally and she refuses to get a therapist. She says it’s because her depression isn’t bad enough. I think she’s afraid of what people will think of her. I tell lots of people who are having difficulty in their lives that they should get counselling and the majority say “no!” in fear, like I’ve said a curse or something.

What the hell is wrong with therapy?! I really don’t understand why it’s so stigmatized. The fact that the subject is so taboo actually just makes me sad and upset because I know so many people who would benefit from therapy.

Therapy has given me a place to check in. It’s a place where I can say anything and everything that’s on my mind without the risk of judgement. It’s a place where I can relax, where I can cry as much as I want, and where I can really dig deep and discover parts of myself I have never known before.

I don’t believe I was ever opposed to therapy. I’ll admit it was nervewracking when I was first sent to therapy in the depths of my eating disorder. I was timid at first, but as I began to unravel during recovery along with my entire life unraveling, my therapist was the only thing which kept me on track and allowed me to believe in myself.

My therapist is the first person I can call when I know I need help. It’s nice to know there is someone available on the other line who knows me rather than it being anonymous. I don’t feel so strange or shy.

Even if you’re not going through an extremely hard time in life, therapy can still reap a lot of benefits. At the end of the day, it’s a way to unpack your experiences so that you can ultimately be more at peace and live your life in a more educated way in terms of emotional health.

I can’t overstate how much therapy has been beneficial to me. Especially during your 20’s, when life is suddenly handed to you on a silver platter and you want to swat it to the other side of the room, therapy can help you get through.

So if you’re considering a little counselling or a lot of therapy, don’t be worried about what other people think of you. They probably admire your bravery. Do what’s best for you and worry about others later.

On that note, I’m off to see my therapist.

 

L

Lauratherapy, recovery